Meet Rachel
The Power of My Testimony
Today I sit in Gratitude as I Reflect like a Glimmering Light upon the surface of the Water – beneath was an Abyss of Darkness and a Little Girl longing for Belonging….
Raise a Child in the Way
At a very young age, I was very Aware and Attuned as Abba equipped me with the Intuition to know that there was something Inherently Wrong with this World.
I knew that deep down, the Public School System was Evil – Vaccines were trying to Kill me – The “food” tasted like Poison (and actually was) – I was much Different than Everyone Else I knew & it became increasingly Challenging to Connect with Others at the Level I needed to be Met.
I grew up in the Charismatic Christian Church and became normalized to their way of worship. I had a Deep Love & Reverence for the Father and could see in the Spirit until I renounced it all because I was confused.
By the age of 12, I Knew that whatever this Religion was – was not of the Father but riddled with deceit.
Raised in a Broken Home by my mother who lived by Faith and did her best to rear my brother & I…we moved a lot and went to many different schools. Every time I made a new friend…it was time to move again. Between the lack of connection on either side of my family and not being able to have or keep friends, my world was shaped in a very lonely fashion.
Ushering in the Prodigal Child
At age 13, I started drinking, smoking and performing Black Magic Rituals at the Indian Graveyard with my best friend whom I found comfort in – even if we were playing with the Devil.
I needed to Escape and find Value, Worth and Power in a world that felt so Dark and Disconnected.
Those Wicked choices led me down a Treacherous path I could not have ever imagined. I got into nearly ALL of the drugs quickly and began a very Lascivious Lifestyle of Reckless Rebellion.
I was a full-blown Addict & Alcoholic by age 16.
By 19, I was injecting Heroin and started dating the first Narcissistic Boyfriend amongst what would be Many over the course of nearly a decade. I would not wish that kind of Hell on anyone. Somehow, I was able to keep my Integrity, Kindness, Honesty and Empathy intact amidst the abuse.
By 23, I had been clinically dead 3 times ….
Via overdose and countless other times the enemy had tried to take my life in various ways. I traveled the U.S. from Coast to Coast a few times a Year following bands and going to Music Festivals – doing copious amounts of drugs and going even deeper into Occult Practices – under the illusion of “Fun & Freedom”.
At 26, I was finally able to Break Free from the clutches of Heroin addiction. HalleluYah! Albeit I was still on the path to destruction.
Shattered Paradigm
27 was a Life Changing & Shattering year. In the throes of my Great Awakening – going Deep into the Detestable Details of some of the Darkest Deeds happening under the surface of the Facade of this World…that not many knew about at this time.
Now well aware that the World was truly run by Satan…I could not run from the Truth that our Creator is who He Says He is…
I began to Pour into the Scriptures and read it Cover to Cover – Insatiably researching everything I could. It was absolutely undeniable that Yahuah ((or God as I understood him at that time)) was Our Creator, Elohim and Master.
But…I didn’t quite bow my knee just yet…
As my Paradigm Shattered, I learned that I had to relearn every Lie that I had been taught – like everyone in the Awakening Process – I became Obsessed with the Truth, Scriptures and Decoding the Occult.
During this period of 2 years I quit drugs, alcohol & smoking nicotine ((aside from cultivating and consuming cannabis regularly)) and dedicated myself to this Lifestyle of Learning. My Mother had Dreams & Visions of Yahuah Healing and Saving me…
Abba lead me along the Path of Holistic Healing & Health at this Crossroads – showing me the Beginning of my Calling and the Way He was doing a Great Work within me to prepare me to Heal – Physically, Mentally, Emotionally, Sexually, Spiritually.
After another Toxic Relationship and Breakup I ended up back in the Hedonistic Lifestyle that I was in before – yet just as the Bible says – in a much Worse state than the first.
I lived this Strange & Inverted double life …
where I was this Witchy, Adulterous, Harlot in the Light ((and proud of it)) and in the darkness I wept, read my Bible diligently and tried to repent…only to be a Slave to this Cycle for 7 years.
It was absolutely excruciating to have had this newfound sense of awareness on a profound level, knowledge of Scripture & Health, the beginning of True Wisdom and a whole lot of Responsibility that came with it all – to know that I would be judged more severely for Believing and turning away…
I did not know how to Repent and turn from my Wicked Ways and it Haunted me.
By His Stripes
Soon after, I delved into a whole world of “Self Help” and joined a large organization that composed this type of intricate healing work. I am so Grateful that Yahuah has given me the Grace to use this training to my ability (as I did my best to seek him with all of my heart in my suffering), while breaking free from the Mind Control and Lies they were sewing into the minds of their clients.
I was now at a new level of self awareness and autonomy which allowed me more access to Grow as I started my Holistic Personal Chef business and became a Health & Life Coach.
Slowly but surely, Each step I took in my healing journey allowed me to shed a lot of the toxic layers of my life and invite in something more pure and wholesome.
Breaking free from the toxic cycle of Narcissistic Abuse took many years of ignorance, awareness, research, dedication and healing. After that I was able to create a Relationship with who I believed to be my soul-mate.
A love so Intense and Immersive that I would have gone to the Ends of the Earth & beyond for…
until I began to Embody my Value.
One of those soul shattering moments when you realize that your soul partner is not aligned with your Values and you are both too messed up to make it work together…but if you could only be whole it would be the relationship of a lifetime.
My Integrity told me I had no choice but to leave. I was beyond broken...
Abba Yah Shined His Light through the cracks of my Soul Shatter and began to work more Miracles in my Character and Healing Journey -taking me through a series of Deliverance – with only the Ruach flowing through me and Purging me from these Disgusting Unclean Spirits…it was absolutely Wild!
Yah was listening to my Prayers, giving me Prayer Language and Guiding me through the Nightmare that I tried so very hard to Emerge myself from…
but there was a major battle for my Soul.
You are the Potter…I am the Clay
After 6 months of intense healing, I got caught up in a very Hedonistic & Promiscuous Lifestyle again for a short while before it all came to a head.
I truly saw myself for who I was allowing the Enemy to use me to be.
I was disgusted, defiled, defamed and devastated.
This breaking point was that shift that finally made me able to Smash & Burn all of my Crystals, Occult Books, Spell Books, Dream Catchers, Sexual items, etc. HalleluYah!!!
…which was a Major Shift…but not enough to bring me to my knees so I continued in Debauchery for as long as I could until…
I found out I was Pregnant…
The Shift – Surrender
Terrified of – Myself, my Situation, my Choices – bringing a Child into the World…
Alone…
I had no idea what to do and was about to be Beyond my Breaking Point…
A few months into my pregnancy I heard the words of the Father so clearly. He said…
“You are Having this Boy. He is a King on this Earth.”
I replied “Your will be done Abba. I Surrender.”
I began to dissolve from the New Age & Promiscuous Communities I was so Deeply intertwined with – the living situation I was in Blew Up and I was Alone, Homeless & Pregnant.
I had to put ALL of my Trust & Faith in the Most High in this moment.
I traveled West for 4 months searching for Answers. A lot happened during this Time and Yah brought me back to Colorful Colorado which I called Home for 15 Abstract years.
Following the Way – Living by Faith
At this point – I was FULL IN with Yahuah – doing my best to Learn & Follow the Torah. I gave up Everything and vowed to live 100% by Faith to the Will of our Father. Little did I know what this would mean, but I am still living in this Covenant 4 years later and do not See my Life Any other Way…
8 months Pregnant, still without a Home and could not find anyone to rent to me…
The Heat was ON and the Trial was getting More Real by the day. By Yah’s Grace, I managed to find places to bounce around to in the interim of finally finding an Apartment of my own. I was eternally Grateful.
3 days before my Due Date…90mph winds…Fire Ablaze in the town directly above me…600+ Homes Burned…and Headed in my Direction…
On my knees in Prayer – Abba stopped the Fire from Spreading. HalleluYah!!! The next day was Moving Day after the Fires and I woke up to a Blizzard.
Yahuah Provides. I finally had the help I needed after Moving several times on my own during Pregnancy and Traveling – amongst much more Trauma and Tribulation.
I had an Absolutely Amazing and Miraculous Home Birth to my Mighty Son, Andronicus. So blessed to have been Honored with such a Peaceful & Powerful birth team. Abba allowed me to Raise my Son there for a Year & a Half until…
The Rent didn’t come…
We had to move abruptly, put everything into Storage and were on the Road, Traveling in my Minivan.
A lot happened during those 4 Months…Some of it was completely Free. Some Devastating. Many Laughs and Challenges alike and I am Thankful from the Bottom of my Heart for all of it.
Fiery Furnace – The Heat Intensifies
Moving to my Dream Place – with the most incredible view of the West Elk Mountain Range – 10 Acres aching to become my Homestead and a Whole lot of Faith, Courage and Hard Work…
The illusion quickly melted and I was left with a Hollow Vision – Everything enveloped in Utter Chaos and yet again Unstable in our Home Space.
Placed in the furnace for our Creator to Melt & Mold as He will to Refine the Character of His Remnant...
Such an Honor.
So Excruciating.
So Humbled.
So Blessed.
Thank You Abba.
After 10 months of my Life being turned Upside Down & Inside Out in All of the Ways…I got a phone call.
My brother was Diagnosed with Stage IV Cancer on his 41st Birthday.
Once again without Hesitation….I packed up all of my things on my own with my Toddler in Tow and made it to Tulsa 2 days later. It is an Honor and a Privilege that Yah has called me here to be in Service to my Brother with over a Decade of Holistic Healing experience and a Heart on Fire for the Living Word!
The Meek Shall Inerit the Earth
The Extreme Heat during this time has been unbearable in a Myriad of ways and Abba Yah has done an Astounding work in me throughout the Trial that I still have not gotten to see the full Fruit of.
At the time of writing this, I feel my Life is Just beginning. The True Woman HE has Created me to be is Just Now being Born and something Beyond Measure is on the Horizon.
I love you, Abba. Thank you. I dedicate my Life in Service to Your Kingdom, Remnant and Will for all Eternity. Shema.