Meet Rachel
The Power of My Testimony
Today I sit in Gratitude as I Reflect like a Glimmering Light upon the surface of the Water – beneath was an Abyss of Darkness and a Little Girl longing for Belonging….
Raise a Child in the Way
At a very young age, I was very Aware and Attuned as Abba equipped me with the Intuition to know that there was something Inherently Wrong with this World.
I knew that deep down, the Public School System was Evil – Vaccines were trying to Kill me – The “food” tasted like Poison (and actually was) – I was much Different than Everyone Else I knew & it became increasingly Challenging to Connect with Others at the Level I needed to be Met.
I grew up in the Charismatic Christian Church and became normalized to their way of worship. I had a Deep Love & Reverence for the Father and could see in the Spirit until I renounced it all because I was confused.
By the age of 12, I Knew that whatever this Religion was – was not of the Father but riddled with deceit.
Raised in a Broken Home by my mother who lived by Faith and did her best to rear my brother & I…we moved a lot and went to many different schools. Every time I made a new friend…it was time to move again. Between the lack of connection on either side of my family and not being able to have or keep friends, my world was shaped in a very lonely fashion.
Ushering in the Prodigal Child
At age 13, I started drinking, smoking and performing Black Magic Rituals at the Indian Graveyard with my best friend whom I found comfort in – even if we were playing with the Devil.
I needed to Escape and find Value, Worth and Power in a world that felt so Dark and Disconnected.
Those Wicked choices led me down a Treacherous path I could not have ever imagined. I got into nearly ALL of the drugs quickly and began a very Lascivious Lifestyle of Reckless Rebellion.
I was a full-blown Addict & Alcoholic by age 16.
By 19, I was injecting Heroin and started dating the first Narcissistic Boyfriend amongst what would be Many over the course of nearly a decade. I would not wish that kind of Hell on anyone. Somehow, I was able to keep my Integrity, Kindness, Honesty and Empathy intact amidst the abuse.
By 23, I had been clinically dead 3 times ….
Via overdose and countless other times the enemy had tried to take my life in various ways. I traveled the U.S. from Coast to Coast a few times a Year following bands and going to Music Festivals – doing copious amounts of drugs and going even deeper into Occult Practices – under the illusion of “Fun & Freedom”.
At 26, I was finally able to Break Free from the clutches of Heroin addiction. HalleluYah! Albeit I was still on the path to destruction.
Shattered Paradigm
27 was a Life Changing & Shattering year. In the throes of my Great Awakening – going Deep into the Detestable Details of some of the Darkest Deeds happening under the surface of the Facade of this World…that not many knew about at this time.
Now well aware that the World was truly run by Satan…I could not run from the Truth that our Creator is who He Says He is…
I began to Pour into the Scriptures and read it Cover to Cover – Insatiably researching everything I could. It was absolutely undeniable that Yahuah ((or God as I understood him at that time)) was Our Creator, Elohim and Master.
But…I didn’t quite bow my knee just yet…
As my Paradigm Shattered, I learned that I had to relearn every Lie that I had been taught – like everyone in the Awakening Process – I became Obsessed with the Truth, Scriptures and Decoding the Occult.
During this period of 2 years I quit drugs, alcohol & smoking nicotine ((aside from cultivating and consuming cannabis regularly)) and dedicated myself to this Lifestyle of Learning. My Mother had Dreams & Visions of Yahuah Healing and Saving me…
Abba lead me along the Path of Holistic Healing & Health at this Crossroads – showing me the Beginning of my Calling and the Way He was doing a Great Work within me to prepare me to Heal – Physically, Mentally, Emotionally, Sexually, Spiritually.
After another Toxic Relationship and Breakup I ended up back in the Hedonistic Lifestyle that I was in before – yet just as the Bible says – in a much Worse state than the first.
I lived this Strange & Inverted double life …
where I was this Witchy, Adulterous, Harlot in the Light ((and proud of it)) and in the darkness I wept, read my Bible diligently and tried to repent…only to be a Slave to this Cycle for 7 years.
It was absolutely excruciating to have had this newfound sense of awareness on a profound level, knowledge of Scripture & Health, the beginning of True Wisdom and a whole lot of Responsibility that came with it all – to know that I would be judged more severely for Believing and turning away…
I did not know how to Repent and turn from my Wicked Ways and it Haunted me.
By His Stripes
Soon after, I delved into a whole world of “Self Help” and joined a large organization that composed this type of intricate healing work. I am so Grateful that Yahuah has given me the Grace to use this training to my ability (as I did my best to seek him with all of my heart in my suffering), while breaking free from the Mind Control and Lies they were sewing into the minds of their clients.
I was now at a new level of self awareness and autonomy which allowed me more access to Grow as I started my Holistic Personal Chef business and became a Health & Life Coach.
Slowly but surely, Each step I took in my healing journey allowed me to shed a lot of the toxic layers of my life and invite in something more pure and wholesome.
Breaking free from the toxic cycle of Narcissistic Abuse took many years of ignorance, awareness, research, dedication and healing. After that I was able to create a Relationship with who I believed to be my soul-mate.
A love so Intense and Immersive that I would have gone to the Ends of the Earth & beyond for…
until I began to Embody my Value.
One of those soul shattering moments when you realize that your soul partner is not aligned with your Values and you are both too messed up to make it work together…but if you could only be whole it would be the relationship of a lifetime.
My Integrity told me I had no choice but to leave. I was beyond broken...
Abba Yah Shined His Light through the cracks of my Soul Shatter and began to work more Miracles in my Character and Healing Journey -taking me through a series of Deliverance – with only the Ruach flowing through me and Purging me from these Disgusting Unclean Spirits…it was absolutely Wild!
Yah was listening to my Prayers, giving me Prayer Language and Guiding me through the Nightmare that I tried so very hard to Emerge myself from…
but there was a major battle for my Soul.
You are the Potter…I am the Clay
After 6 months of intense healing, I got caught up in a very Hedonistic & Promiscuous Lifestyle again for a short while before it all came to a head.
I truly saw myself for who I was allowing the Enemy to use me to be.
I was disgusted, defiled, defamed and devastated.
This breaking point was that shift that finally made me able to Smash & Burn all of my Crystals, Occult Books, Spell Books, Dream Catchers, Sexual items, etc. HalleluYah!!!
…which was a Major Shift…but not enough to bring me to my knees so I continued in Debauchery for as long as I could until…
I found out I was Pregnant…
Walking in the Way – Living by Faith
I was absolutely terrified and did not have any stability physically or emotionally and mentally – I was about to get wrecked.
A few months into my pregnancy I heard the words of the Father so clearly. He said…
“You are Having this Boy. He is a King on this Earth.”
I replied “Your will be done Abba. I Surrender.”
I began to dissolve from the New Age & Promiscuous Communities I was so Deeply intertwined with – the living situation I was in Blew Up and I was Alone, Homeless & Pregnant. I had to put ALL of my Trust & Faith in the Most High in this moment.
I traveled across the country during this time and searched for answers. Yah brought me back to Colorful Colorado which I called Home for 15 years. I have never been one to Believe in the System – so it was quite challenging for me to find a place to Rent on my own without Credit.
I was 8 months pregnant – Grateful a friend offered me the downstairs apartment in his Beautiful Home to stay in to Give Birth to my Son…until he received an Air B’n’B offer he could not refuse – Choosing Mammon over Integrity.
Trusting Yah with all of my Might – I was hurt, yet let the news roll like water off of my back as I Pressed Forward in the search for finding my Humble Home and Place to bring my Son into this World. Thankfully, I had already Connected Deeply with a Wonderful Mid-Wife and Birth Keeper who were very Supportive of me that gave me a lot of Hope.
HalleluYah!!! After applying at nearly 50 Residencies – I found the place that looked at me as a Human Being and not just a Number! All Glory to the Most High! I had to be out of the place I was in before my move-in date due to the Air B’n’B folks coming….so Yah provided another Kind Messenger to let me stay in his Condo while he was away on business.
Now 9 months pregnant and moving on my own from one place to another at the end of December…the heat went out a couple of days later at the new place & unable to get the parts in time to fix it – I was forced to pack up once again and shift to another place before my Apartment was ready for move-in.
The Humility was certainly Sinking in as my friends came to help me load my things in their truck, Thank Goodness! Back on the road once again – getting closer to my Destination…Winds Howling & Racing at 90mph while Enormous Clouds of White Smoke Billow from the Foothills.
The suburbs directly above me were Completely Ablaze and most of the Roads were closed on the way to the House. I was able to find some back roads to make my way there – when they told me that over 600 homes had already burned, and the Fire was heading in our Direction quickly with those Wind Speeds.
On my knees in Prayer – Abba stopped the Fire from spreading Miraculously and we were all Safe and Sound. Alas! The next Morning was Moving Day and I would finally be in my Humble Abode, preparing to give Birth…only to wake up to a Blizzard!
Yahuah Provides. With a whole lot of Help…the move was a Success and I was Gifted some necessities I would not have been able to live without during that time, for which I am Forever Grateful. HalleluYah!
With my Due Date being only 2 days later…Yah also Granted me the Gift of Time. I Gave an Absolutely Amazing and Miraculous Home Birth to my Mighty Son, Andronicus. Continuing to live 100% by Faith – Abba allowed us to live there for a Year & a Half until Abruptly – we had to move everything into Storage and were on the Road, Traveling in my Minivan.
A lot happened during those 4 Months…
Some of it was completely Free. Some Devastating. Many Laughs and Challenges alike and I am Grateful for all of it. I had connected with some people in Paonia, CO – which was a Long Time Dream of mine to live there. Yahuah carved the way by Faith for us to move there…which was Wonderful…
Until it wasn’t…
I was completely oblivious to what I was getting myself into and the Challenges that I would face living on the Land we ended up on.
Trial by Fire.
Placed in the furnace for our Creator to Melt & Mold as He will to Refine the Character of His Remnant. Such an Honor. So Excruciating. So Humbled. So Blessed. Thank you Abba.
After 10 months of Trials in this Stunning Valley I thought I would be at Home in…I got a phone call.
My brother was Diagnosed with Stage IV Cancer on his 41st Birthday.
Once again without Hesitation….I packed up all of my things on my own with my Toddler in Tow – packed the Van to the brim and loaded the rest into yet another Storage Unit. 2 Days later – we made it to Tulsa.
So very grateful for Yahuah and Yahusha and the way that they Work things out on our Behalf – even though it is rough and not ideal – we had a home to live in and I have had over a decade of Holistic Health practice under my Belt to help my Brother to the Best of my Ability.